Twenty-seven days 'til Thirty...baby crazy...

I was originally going to write today's blog on a a much heavier topic, but ultimately decided on writing a sappier entry and saving the heavier topic until later.  Mainly because I only have 45 minutes to get this blog published in time and the heavier topic will require more time =)

As some of you may or may not have noticed in the past few years, I've been pretty baby crazy.  Meaning I love kids and want some of my own.

Growing up, I've always said that I wanted kids one day.  It was never something I thought about not being an option for me.  As I've gotten older, a LARGE portion of my nearest and dearest friends started having kids...plural.  This only fanned the flames of my biological clock ticking:

Specifically watch 0:53 - 1:06

I also have two ADORABLE god-children (purely a ceremonial title) which have given me some doses of baby over the years and I recently got to meet my best-friend Emilie's new baby:

 As I said, I've always wanted to have children and the possibility of not being able to have them never entered my mind.  Then I came out.  Now I know that being gay in and of itself is not its own barrier to having children.  It does, however, complicate things a whole hell of a lot.  Although I really want to have biological children, I have not counted out adoption as an option either; both options coming with their own plethora of legal and financial complications.

When I say I want kids one day, it's not just a statement I'm making off-hand.  I have actually researched both surrogacy and adoption laws as well as the procedures and cost in my area.  I have even researched what the laws are for the home-grown variety of baby-growing for LGBT people.  It's unfortunate that no matter what for me, at least the way things stand now, I will ALWAYS have to have a lawyer involved if I want children.  And so many people take it for granted.  All of that being said...it is still a possibility for me to have my own children.

Don't get me wrong, I am not in the place at this very moment to have a child.  I'm not even talking about not having a husband or partner to raise a child with because, as I seem unable to keep a man around for more than two consecutive years, that's really not the biggest concern for me.  I'm not afraid to do it on my own.  I'm just not in a place at this very moment where seriously exploring my options with intent to proceed immediately is feasible.  I have, however, for the first time started to worry about my age in regards to starting a family.  Now calm down all of you...I'm not saying that 30 is even close to too old to start a family and have kids, I'm just saying that time is running out, and as you all know, the older you get, it is almost unreal how time goes by exponentially faster.

But I really can't wait to have my own son or daughter.  I really think I would be such a good dad and I know my mother especially can't wait to spoil a grandchild. (No seriously...she's ready to be a grandmother.  Like really ready).  The thought of it makes me really happy.  Whether that child be mine biologically or adopted...I can't wait until it's mine =)

I don't know if a lot of people knew how badly I want to have kids one day.  So there you go.

I will leave you with a funny quote from Will & Grace:

Vince:  "Will. I'm an old-fashioned homosexual. Okay? To me, family is two guys, some mid-century furniture, and a baby that doesn't look like either one of us."

Until tomorrow...BYEEEEE!